Well I for sure am.
You see I’ve always been the person who gives and gives and gives.
Be it in a romantic relationship or in a friendship.
I still remember as a kid I had a friend and I used to fight with teachers if they scolded her. Then I had a friend who I would talk daily with whenever she needed me. And many many more such examples.
But eventually, people left.
And they leave a void in you every single time.
Friends we would die for, now strangers.
Being a giver is hard on so many levels.
You always wear your heart on your sleeves.
You pretty much always have to decide between your own self and someone else and majority of the time, someone else wins it.
It gets heavy too.
After a point of time in your life you question yourself. You drown in self doubt.
But to be honest, I don’t want to stop.
Truth is this quality is so so rare in today’s world.
You might be a stranger to me but if I found you in need or crying, I’ll be there to give you a shoulder to cry on.
And if I make someone’s day a bit better, I consider it a good day.
I might be hurting on the inside but I’ll probably be there for you.
I might not have the correct solutions for your problems but I’ll be there in silence to give you company and make you feel less lonely.
Sometimes silence works more than some words of wisdom.
So probably I won’t stop being a giver anytime soon.